‧₊˚ ┊ baby's first bearblog post
hello there, i am trying out bear blog for the time being. it is likely going to be a long while until i am able to code myself a blog of my own on a website of my own, but i've been missing the format of making... longer posts on a rarer occasion, just talking about stuff. the image/media limitation was stopping me to be honest, so i caved for the discounted subscription (the regional pricing adjustment is so kind, it warmed my heart), and am worried about not making most of it. well, if i don't, i guess i'll just cancel, so we shall see, huh? (update: just found out you don't need the sub to embed images, oops. i might cancel next month, but this is a good thing to give support to anyway).
i don't even have anything of worth to say, really. i don't want a blog because i have some kind of really deep and interesting thoughts to share. i just miss trying to make longer posts about my life from time to time, and keep it all somewhere to look back on when i need it. please bear (haha) with me as i make these posts into the void. you don't have to read them, i know through my own unfortunate experience how hard it can be to sit down and read something lengthy. i wish it was easier both for my adhd and my chronic fatigue.
by the way, i wonder if i should be typing properly for a blog. it feels like it would be more "right" to do so. but i am quite concerned that i will keep forgetting to capitalize things, or i will sound off. lowercase is how i usually do everything all my life. it just flows nicer when typing. and it works for short format text. but i feel like maybe longer text is more legible with proper capitalization? i am not really sure at all.
i am worried i will drop this just like many other things i do, be it because of adhd or chronic fatigue or some other reason. i already don't journal a lot like i want to, and so i am concerned about just not going anywhere with this either. i think people don't actually care that much, and probably would not actually judge me. but i suppose i still struggle with anything that makes me feel inadequate in other people's eyes. which is a lot of things, to be honest. i just want to feel like i am capable of something consistent in my life. but maybe i'm not. who knows for sure?
i will stop rambling for now, and make use of having the media feature since i paid for it anyway. so here are some furries from yesterday. i've been trying to casually do anthro-april challenge somebody made, mostly as a way to keep myself drawing every day if i can and having a prompt for it.
