my hoarding issues
a shorter post, but i typed this out somewhere else, and realized it might be a good blog post to make. for myself, i mean. you know, like when you're journaling.
i'm getting a package from my fiancée today, which i am so super incredibly excited about!! but i keep getting worried about not having enough space to store some things in just my room... i need to reorganize my shelves a bit and reorganize my closet and such, but it takes so much effort. need to save for and buy some bins to make storing things easier too.
but i feel like i'm outgrowing the space of a tiny room and it fills me with guilt, because if i could afford living on my own as the adult that i am, i'd have more space available to me more likely... but i can't, so i'm just a big grownup taking up too much space and not knowing where to fit some things anymore.
i do have a bad habit of holding onto things i don't use anymore, "just in case". just in case i need this backpack again, just in case i get into gintama again and want merch, just in case i'm into hypmic again and want my faves, xyz took me so much effort to get, or has sentimental value. i have so much trash hoarded taking up a whole shelf in my closet because, what if i need things for collages and have nothing. or this is such pretty packaging i'm emotionally attached to, i can't just throw it away. collectible boxes, i will need them whenever i get a chance to move and slowly want to take my figurines with me on visits. plushies i am too attached to and/or that are gifts from robin. i can't just give those away.
and so on, and so forth, and it keeps going. i need to unlearn it and understand how to both own things in a way where i have things on hand if needed, but also be reasonable about it rather than just hoard, hoard, hoard, hoard, hoard... because what if. what if. what if.